Chapter 1.2 The Wrath of Those Above

It was just past the year of my weaning, I was only a child I had no knowledge of important ceremonies. The day was the celebration of the bringing together of our people. Everybody was busy with preparations, bordom had began to take over. I didn't think anyone would mind if I nosed around things. The ceremony was only a little while away, when I noticed my father disappear with the elders into a small cave.

I decided to follow I didn't think anybody minded as nobody tried to stop me. I watched the men for a while, but soon I was preoccupied with the beautiful paintings and figurines on the side wall. One painting in particular caught my attention, it was amazing. The sun shone in the background and two people walked towards each other. I walked over to it and tried to grab it. When I did everything fell down and the painting tore over my head.

The head elder looked down at me and said in an angry voice, "This was the day our people joined and you have destroyed the sacred items. The ones above will not be happy until your first child has destroyed us. Our people will be no more because of you and your child." It seemed I had invoked the wrath of those above.

It is not something I am proud of and it explains why I was teased so much because of my clumsiness. In better news Barsine has just announced her pregnancy to me and I am happy for her.
I also have become pregnant and as much as I have tried to hide it everyone knows as I am in my maternity clothes.
Barsine at first was very nice to me. "What do you want?", she asked. "A girl", I replied. Barsine seemed suprised. Wishing for a girl would bring down the wrath of those above on your child. The problem was my child already had all the wrath of those above on her shoulders.

"I hope mine is a boy",said Barsine. I nodded unsuprised. We continued to talk about our children and what they would be like.Peritas when he found out was excited and glad about having a child.
Even Seleucus didn't seem to mind.
Then again they didn't know what my child would do, but my father had to tell them and tell them he did.


The first day after everybody knew was horrible. Seleucus came up and told me exactly what he thought."Thanks to you our village will be shamed trust a women to turn the ones above against us".
"But", I tried to say.
"Never answer a man back", he warned me.
Barsine looked on this scene with a smile on her face.
We were no longer friends she didn't tell me she just stopped talking to me. Peritas avoided me like I was cursed I guess in a way I am.

The days of my pregnancy passed slowly. Peritas avoided me at all costs, if he had any spare time he talked to Seleucus, my father, or Barsine. Mostly he preferred talking to Barsine.
It broke my heart I just couldn't handle it, so one day I decided to ask him about it. Peritas never gets angry but I got a good telling off then, I think I made things worse.

As for Seleucus I spend all my time trying to avoid him he loves yelling at me,
and lording it over me that it is his right as a man to do this. I despise that I was born a woman.

Barsine as I have said doesn't talk to me, but she loves talking to Peritas in my sight
and my father
Is it wrong that I wish her baby is a girl?

Father and I don't spend time together any more, its more because he knows he can't help me. I only wish I could repair our relationship.

Only thoughts of my child keep me sane, soon I will have someone that depends on me and only me.

One summer evening as life is going on, Barsine goes into labour.
I was worried and all the men were screaming, I mean really. After a few hours she gave beautiful boy named Hephastion and father blessed him.

I pray my labour will go as well but I doubt it as me and the ones above are not on speaking terms...